I hate the feeling of it. Sometimes when I get really scared like that it's like there's my body and then there's me and we're two seperate things and I'm just trapped inside while it stumbles around being scared. Trapped inside and trying to get out. I'd do anything to get out. Sometimes it hurts just to be in my body, that's how hard my heart is beating and how hard I'm breathing.

I don't think Mum ever gets afraid. I mean that. She's not scared but hiding it really well. She just isn't scared of anything. She's too strong in the world for that. She knows nothing can touch her. When I'm grown I'll be like her.